Sometimes we only obey God when it is convenient.
And when we are called to deny ourselves, we push away the conviction of the Holy Spirit and do what we want.
Jesus said if we are to come after Him, we must pick up our cross, deny ourselves, and follow Him. What does it mean to pick up our cross? It means we sacrifice what we want. Jesus denied what His flesh wanted. He didn’t want to go to the cross in His flesh, but He denied what He wanted to be obedient to the Father.
I don’t know what the Father has been speaking to you about – where He is asking you to discipline yourself or what He is asking you to give up for Him. But if you want to know Him in a deep way you have to obey. If you choose to be obedient to Him, He will reveal more and more of Himself and His love to you.
From: Rivers of Revelation, by Kirt A. Schneider